I have such mixed emotions about the fact that it is the last day of school today.
Part of me rejoices. I reach out greedily for our days to be our own again.
But part of me is in deep mourning. Because the end of school means the end of another year. It means my children are a year older. Their baby-ness is fading quickly.
Maybe that's why I've had a severe regression back to being on the verge of tears with IWAN lately. Maybe that's why I broke down to the ladies in the front office last week in anticipation of my baby going to Kindergarten next year.
I'm ready for summer.
But I'm not ready for another year to slip silently away from me.
As I drive down the street and see the school kids lugging home backpacks full of every ounce of paper from their desks, huge smiles stretched across their faces, I'm so excited for them. But part of me is sad for their mothers. And part of me is sad for me.
Luckily I got through preschool graduation without a tear yesterday (except for the tears while I wrote out the thank you notes to Lucy's teachers before the big shin dig). And luckily I get to do a little give-away to take me away from my wallowing.
And it's perfect for the last day of school because I'm giving away a breathtakingly beautiful book about light and learning. And what a better thing to celebrate on the last day of school than those two things.
This book needs just a little bit of explanation. When my sister was on her mission in Bulgaria years ago she met Eva, a young girl so full of light and excitement for life. Later Eva came to live with our family in the states to go to college here. She has since become a self-made fabulous photographer with an amazing eye for light.
Check out some of her photographs here. She has presented on photography all over the world and exudes love for what she does. She also has photography collection exhibits all over the world. Much more about her here.
This is what she says about her book Lost in Learning: "My intent in this project has been to create a portrait of an age where exploration was life's supreme adventure. Times when men first took a lens and pointed it across the sea in search of new worlds.
"Or turned it Heavenward exploring worlds beyond the stars...turning my own lens on the relics of centuries past I have sought to recapture that spirit of the explorers...creators...scientists who have left us with so lasting a legacy...the photographs invite the viewer to look deeper into the lives and works of these great figures.
Much more about the book here and here.
So, enter a comment for a chance to win this beautiful thing.
I'll announce the winner on Saturday morning.
Happy last-day-of-school to all those who are in celebration/mourning mode here in the desert :)
p.s. Eva's blog is here.