We were supposed to take off this morning for Lucy's testing in Bethesda, Maryland.
We were going a day early because that's the way they arranged it, and we figured what the heck, we could visit friends and family there before all the serious stuff begins.
But last night as I waited for Dave to come home (he had been out of town most of the week...some for work, some for a golf trip), worry started spilling in about leaving. It started off just trickling in, but built up until I was pretty much a wreck.
I had thought since we were bringing Lucy with us it would be a cinch to leave four other "old" kids who have grown out of throwing tantrums. But as I sat there with the web of carpools and concerts and games and needs laid out before me I got overwhelmed. Even more importantly, my heart has been in a knot with worry about some different issues with our kids right now...things that I can't control that make me feel sick to my stomach for them. And I just wanted to be with them and hold them tight for one more day.
And most importantly all the worry began to seep in about Lucy's tests...How they would run? What they would tell us? How many more things for us to worry about will be brought to light?
After all the hype of getting ready to leave town and the adventures I relish that come with traveling, all I really wanted for today was to have that "gift" of an ordinary Sunday home with our family all together. I wanted to snuggle with Claire who had fallen asleep without a hug. I wanted to get more details about Max's first volleyball tournament that I had had to miss. I wanted to sit on the piano bench with my kids and snuggle them up, making sure they could feel my heart reaching out to them.
So, at 11:00 last night Dave came home and saved the day and switched our flights to tomorrow.
And it made me so thankful for what a gift an "ordinary" day can be. I so often take those for granted.
And now we're ready to hit the other kind of "real life" tomorrow morning.
p.s. Click here to see the great video about the "gift of an ordinary day" if you haven't already seen it. Man, we're lucky to have those.